Boxed In!!

Hey guys! Thanks to the 3 that tuned in! 3 hey hahahaha...oh well, gotta start somewhere I guess! At least it wasn't 0...think I would've cried into my non-waterproof keyboard then lol. Speaking of keyboards, For the past 2 weeks I've had a brand new laptop, still in its box, sitting on the floor. Along with my new car stereo, which has been there even longer and a 007 Golden Eye Nintendo Wii game, which has been there so long, it's become part of the furniture. Think I should get them out of their boxes???? Yeah, I think so too.

Far out I'm exhausted!! I've had appointments everyday except Monday this week and the stress from some of them has nearly killed me. I know you're all saying, "Why would that nearly kill you???" See, I can hear you...blogs have ears these days you know lol. Anyway, back to my exhaustion. I suffer from Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and anyone that suffers from it will know that if you go out for more than one or two days (especially if it's stressful), you're pretty much bedridden for the next week. So, you can imagine four (one being SUPER stressful) days in a row. I can barely open my eyes or think straight. See, again you're wondering why I don't just go to bed. HA! I wish! If only things were that simple lol. You see, my 17 year old DS (dear son) is still up and well who knows when he'll be ready to go to bed. And before you go saying I mustn't take that from him and that I should just demand he go to bed, or I go to bed and leave him to it, I so so wish it were that easy! You see, if I try to do either of those things, he has a complete meltdown...which can range from simple verbal abuse (with his grandiose beliefs about himself thrown in), to total psychosis, with extreme aggression. Yes, I am trying to desperately get help for him. That's what pretty much takes up the whole week, with one of them being the SUPER stressful time. All I will say is one thing and I apologise if any of you reading this are government psychologists or psychiatrists, but they are all idiots & brain washers that twist your words around. They've also managed to convince me that I am a useless mother, which is confidence building for sure! This is after friends and family, that are not known for their compliments, have complimented me on how well I cope with DS and how fortunate he is to have a mum that loves and cares about him so much. I do love him....I love him so much and just want him to get the help he so deserves, so he can get his life back and can be happy within himself, which at the moment he is not! But anyway, back to government shrinks, I have one final thing to say....they are all utterly USELESS!!!!

Onto lighter things now....if you haven't either fallen asleep or tuned out already lol. I love music! Can't get enough of it....no, I literally mean, I can't get enough of it...as in none! *sobs* But on the extremely odd occasion I do get to listen, it just de-stresses and relaxes me beyond belief!! Well, unless it's death metal of course....then it just gives me a migraine lol. Anyway, music that relaxes me and is not migraine forming....Josh Groban, Damien Leith, Mark Vincent, Coldplay, The Ten Tenors, Elvis Presley, Michael Buble, Michael Jackson, Dido, Enya, Shania Twain, Roxette, NKOTB,  and the list goes on and on and on and on......hahahahaha. What sort of music do you guys like? Comment and let me know! :)

Ok guys, now that I've put you all into a coma, I'll let you go.....or will I???? Hahahahaha I'm so delirious...which in reading this, isn't a lot different to my normal self. :P

Thanks so much for reading and I'll see you next time!

P.S. Be happy and remember to laugh at yourself...

My First Blog....EVER!!

Hi guys! Well, ummm, what can I say lol. This all feels a little strange but I'm sure I'll get used to it.

Anyway, I'll start off by introducing myself. I'm Anne, I'm 36 and a single mother of a just turned 17 (November 16) young man. This particular young man drives me absolutely crazy and I don't mean that in the light hearted sense. No, I mean, he LITERALLY DRIVES ME CRAZY! Please don't get me wrong, I love him so dearly but too many times lately I have felt a desperate need to escape from this house, as his extremely bad nerves, obsessive compulsive behaviour and aggressiveness make me feel like I'm a virtual prisoner in my own home. Yes, things are that bad unfortunately. Yet in reality, I've really only hit the tip of the iceberg. You will see all this in time.

Anyway, I just wanted to make a start. I'm off to bed now, as it is almost 4am here. My son, or DS as I will call him in these blogs, has just gone to bed....with our almost crippled, drugged up, bed wetting (side effect) dog beside him. But that's another story lol.

Thanks for reading, take care and hope you'll "tune in" again next time!

Bye :)